It's Chinese New Year in two days. I called home and talked to my mom. She was cleaning the house with my dad (a must in our culture to clean the place and welcome the new year).
She says that Audrey (my sister) and her husband are arriving home tonight and wishes I was there too so the whole family can be together for the Chinese New Year. I heard 3 seconds of silence, and my eyes started to water. Both my mom and I were trying our hardest not to cry because we both know that if we do, we'll make each other worry. She'd be worrying me being along and I'd be worrying her worrying about me. Being people-pleasers like us, we wanted each other to be happy. So I held my tears back and told her my eventful plans I have ahead, going to friends' and how we'll celebrate. After that wave of missing each other, me and my mom said our quick goodbyes so grandma can talk to me.
Of course, when I talked to her, she said, "Happy New Year! Why aren't you back here? We all miss you... But I understand that you're doing what you have to do. So, don't worry and be happy. Because only when you're happy I can be happy."
Another great insight grandma has taught me. I need to be genuinely happy to allow other to feel the same way. This goes the same for my project I suppose.
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wow, chlo'. love this one. much love to you, and kudos for making yourself happy. one day soon you'll be in a place to be able to go home for Chinese New Year because you followed your dreams and your heart and found success.
ReplyDeleteThanks Linds. I'm so lucky to have such wonderful friends like you to give me so much unconditional love and support to keep me happy. Thank you. And much more love right back at you.
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